Addictions and Depression

The sound of the title is so..scandalous. hehe
But it's nothing like that.

ADDICTION

I'm currently hooked to a manhwa (Korean manga) called Gung. Sh*t it's really good! Brings out the romantic-naive pubescent kid in me. wahehehehe.
It takes up most of my time now. Even in the office. But I have a license to not do anything...they're currently airing a live drama version of the same title in Korea so I can eveluate if it is good (which I think it is!) and if so, if we shall buy it.

I'd like to thank ALL those who pour in effort to scan and translate (scanlate) these manhwas. Thanks for giving us the opportunity to read these manhwas. ^_^

DEPRESSION

It's nice that I finally admitted to some people that I like H. I don't have to hide that fact anymore, although I believe I was really obvious. hehe. Now I can blog about him without having to worry as well.

I think I missed my chance with him. There were moments when I thought he was being serious about liking me (or maybe that was just what I was thinking at the moment). First was the Baguio slip ("I like you"), but later I realized he was just probably tongue-tied or couldn't find the right words to tell me that he wanted me to drink more liquor. Next, the eastwood incident. I was already drunk (as in really drunk!) and I was, uhm, displaying my affection openly (wahahahahah). Hey, I didn't do anything wrong! I was just clinging to him, as I did with E when H wasn't there yet. SO when T asked if I was his girlfriend, he said "yes". And T congratulated me. He also asked if he could touch me since I was already drunk. Pervert. (wahahaha) Then the SM incident. I told him I'd be in SM because of the Mulawin premiere. He said he didn't want to come, he doesn't know the movie anyway. He texted me before the movie started and said he was in SM. We met up, but I had to leave so we decided to meet up again later. When we met up, he and S told me to eat so he went with me to buy some food, leaving S alone at Figaro. When we were already waiting for E to fetch us, I told him I was worried that my boss might see me there ( I kinda took off before my duties were done...hehe..and at this time we were already pretending to be boyfriend-girlfriend). He told me to just say I left "because your boyfriend fetched you". Okay. Smile Smile.

H: When we see him I'll just hug you.
-MiMi blushes furiously-
M: Ah...Uhm..
pause...silence
H: Can I do that? (He looked so serious)
M: Ha? Ah...(I just blurted this out) Only when we see my boss!!! (And what I really wanted to say was plain "yes")

God. I'm so stupid. Up to this day I regret not saying the right things. There was only the two of us and I could have asked the right questions. I could have clarified what was happening between us. Grrr.

There were in-between events (like Moomba nights...how I love Moomba ^_^, e.g. he wrote "love mimi" on the table). I also started a habit of making mano. Just to have an excuse to hold his hand. I also make pa-cute text messages. I really am so cheap!!! O.o

Ang katuparan nung hugging eh during the jazz ko die (hehehe) night. I had my arms wide open, ready to hug, I was actually looking at Diane. Wala man si H sa way/range nung pag hug ko kasi di naman siya ang balak kong i-hug. Promise, kay Diane ako nakatingin. Tapos nung lumalapit na siya (di pa rin ako nakatingin sa kaniya) binaba ko na kamay ko kasi naisip ko "pucha! parang akala niya siya sinesenyasan ko" Yun na nga. Yumakap na si gagu. Na shock talaga ako. Pero masarap. wahehe

BUT after that I really felt uneasy. I thought maybe I was so easy.
Because, thinking about it, I believe I just made it worse for myself.

He only says things like "i like you" WHEN HE'S DRUNK. It also seems that he' just interested in my boobs (what?!), no...just boobs in general. pervert. And, if he really DID like me, he would've made enough effort to probably see me more often. Eh parang walang effort.

Kaya ayun. Nag feeling lang ako. Nalungkot lang ako kasi na realize kong nag feeling lang ako. I know I'm naive but I think I know it when a guy flirts with me. (uuy may nakikipag flirt pala sayo mimi?!)

I've also decided not to like him anymore. tama na. napupuyat lang ako eh.



napupuyat, napapagod, nakakasawang isipin.

obviously, dahil malaki ulo niya (literally and figuratively), isa lang ako sa mga nagpapalaki nun.
parang "okay type mo ako, wala lang. alam ko lang na type mo ko ang ganda ko"
sudden gush talaga. ano ber!

hmmm.

A Childhood Dream Realized

Ang Cheap ko!

wahahahah!

Last night was the realization of my pre-adolescence dream...
I screamed with the other thousand people in Araneta. BSB! BSB! BSB!

hahahahaha

When I was in high school, I was soooooo much into pop, name it, I know it. B*Witched, Peter Andre, Code Red, Ultra, Billie.... etc. (maybe that's why I like metal now cause I got all "popped" out! ^_^) But on top of all these quasi pop artists...the Backstreet Boys were in my heart. (oh how I cringe) If I enumerate all the Ka-cornyhan that we did back then..you wouldn't believe it.

It was a fun fun fun night. It's all Howie's fault. He told us to keep the Backstreet Pride alive. hahahahahahahaha I just laugh at myself. It was so surreal. Until now I still can't believe they went here and I saw them. Oh my God.

Belated Happy Birthday AJ (jan 9)...and an advanced greeting to my first love..Nick Carter (jan 28). :D

I can't believe it. I still know their birthdays. And it's been eight years.

I felt like I was in high school again.
I still love them.
Backstreet's Back alright!

It's blogging day!

It's a Saturday!!! Blogging day!!!

I haven't checked this in a while...hmmm..what have i done since then?

MULANDI KA!!!

Haha!
My boss works as a supervising producer for GMA Films so he "asks" us to help him with GMA Films-related activities. I was in the presscon of the Mulawin the Movie as a runner (a job i didn't thouroughly enjoy when I was in CTV, I still don't) which really pissed me off! They say the presscon was a success, it probably was, but the preparation and the technical aspectsof the event itself was a MESS!!! Working with CTV has helped me in knowing what a really good event is, so if CTV people were there in that presscon, we would've had a great time laughing at those people who call themselves "event organizers" who "organized" that "event". Really.

I was also in the Parade of Stars. I was supposed to be in the float as one of the Mulawin people but I chickened out at the last minute. I now regret not being able to participate there. I was in the coaster instead. There were so many people on the roads leading to the venue, the traffic was so bad! I even had to hold my pee for an hour! That was horrific.

The scandalous MMFF awards night was also witnessed personally by yours truly. Red carpet entrance, cocktails, the works! I was sitting near the center aisle, right in the middle of all the action. Ruffa Mae was late so she there weren't available seats left, she had to sit beside me. Nagchikahan kami, san ka pa! GMA was there, so were the Metro Manila mayors. Mall moguls were also there (Henry Sy and I think someone from Robinson's) Of course there were many big stars. So if that venue was bombed, the world would be a happy place. ^_^ (I'd be dead too!)

To sum it up, I rubbed elbows with stars and VIPs that somehow I felt important too!

MY BABY CAME HOME

Biboy is home!!! The whole family arrived last Jan 7. the following day, the designated day for the yearly reunion, lahat nagkagulo sa kanya! The reunion was so fun!

BRIGHT FUTURE

My aunt's friend is believed to be somewhat psychic, or something of the sort. She was in San Mateo the day Biboy came home. I was eating dinner (she was still at the table) while she was giving "predictions" to my other aunt. She suddenly turned to me and said: "ito makakatanggap ng malaking pera. ma po-promote ka, babae boss mo. magaling ka, yung creativity mo, magagamit mo dun. madali ang pasok ng pera" I was shocked, she knew how my boss looked like. She also knew our office was going to be renovated. hmm. sana mag dilang anghel sya!

TAYA!!!

1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.


Target: Male

Points:
1. has a sense of humor (at kayang sakyan ang kabaliwan ko!!!)
2. neither uptight nor demanding
3. someone i can talk to about anything and everything, not excessively stupid or dumb
4. i love music so it's important that he can tolerate what i listen to, which is mostly "noisy" ^_^
5. understanding
6. good with kids ^_^ (because i am a kid!) hehe
7. i like people who also don't like conforming to the dictates of the popular society so if he is one, it's definitely a plus!
8. and...i would be lying if i didn't say that he must at least be appealing to look at.. what can i say? eye candy helps!

EDIT <01/28/06>
Oh yeah, I forgot to say that I didn't tag anyone. There aren't that enough readers of this blog.