I maybe back for good (and a few other things)...
Because of Erik and Diane, I maybe using this blog a little more frequently. A few months ago I have decided to abandon this space since I enjoy playing round with my Xanga. But I learned that Erik and Diane are kind of active in blogging here...so why not jump in the bandwagon?!
WHY NOT?
I actually have qualms about blogging. Firstly, I enjoy reading other people's blogs and I often think that I am not articulate enough and/or that my vocabulary isn't wide/deep enough. I always wonder about the technicalities (does it sound witty? is it interesting? will this make me sound smart? are there grammatical errors?) that I get discouraged even before starting to write. I also have problems writing what I really want to write. If there are people I write/bitch about who read my blog or know who I'm bitching about then I'd rather not write about it, leaving me with nothing to write about.
Another reason for not updating my blogs is that I now have little time to actually write. That person in the house had a major fight and I cannot forgive it for a long time. It actually spends its whole life in front of the computer so I cannot use the pc.
Anyway, I may be in a writing mood since I've been coming to Diane's everyday so I can use the pc.
BAGUIO
Diane's and Erik's latest entries were regarding our Baguio trip. Mine has a different slant...
I was actually reluctant to go to Baguio. I was there two years ago with a few friends and B. That Baguio trip was sooooo much fun, and the fact that he was there makes it even more memorable. We got so close during that trip, we almost slept beside each other the entire trip. (TAKE NOTE: sleep beside hindi sleep with! mabait ako..although if the occasion had risen I would want to be a bad girl..hehe *wink wink*) It was perfect. The fact that almost the whole class fought because of the schedules and all the other shit/drama they could come up with, didn't dampen my happiness. I was so blissfully happy every second of that Baguio trip, that was why I was scared to go back because I knew I would be reminded of B and everything we did. See here, B turned out to be an unhappy experience after all, especially when I've already told him how I felt. After he left and practically ignored me (he's doing that til now even in YM! the asshole..hahaha) I became so emotionally spent. I was thinking Baguio would provide lots of stimulants (and it did) to remind me of him.
Whatever, I thought, it's still going to be fun since I will be going with different friends, except for Lachi who was also with me during the memorable Baguio event from two years go. It was the day of my interview with the Programming Department of GMA, where I might be hired. After 3 interviews, almost crying in the GMA lobby, and sprinting to the bus station a la Amazing Race ("OMIGOD STOP THE BUS!!), I was finally on my way to what I thought was going to be such a painful reminder-slash-vacation. When we were still in Tarlac I already had visions of him and me in front of the ambulance we rode going to Baguio two years ago. GRRR! Okay, I just decided to sleep. I can't. GRRR ulit! I told Diane that the trip was taking so long but I didn't realize that fact before because it was actually to my advantage since I was sitting beside B during that loooooooooooong trip. In short, all the way up to Baguio I was thinking of the trip before. I was fighting to keep the tears back by pretending to be asleep. When that failed, I decided to be my usual cheerful self. "Pucha naman Inna ang drama mo! Mag tigil tigil ka nga!" I had an agreement with myseld that I'd be okay as long as I didn't go to the Botanical Garden.
Heto na!!! Baguio na!!! My loneliness was overcome by excitement when we reached Baguio. I was also excited na kumpleto na kami. We did the usual tourist route, not forgetting boating in Burnham (and that unforgettable "Iceberg right ahead!" event from four years ago naman). I was correct in assuming that I would be reminded of him, but surprisingly it wasn't that sad, or painful. I jokingly told my companions the story behind the place, tapos nun wala na. Ganun lang. It turned out to be such a fun vacation (Ayee was even there and we all met up). I was drunk all three nights I was there. Goddamn, my "twin peaks" had even been exploited!
The trip was actually cathartic. I was glad that his memories don't affect me as much anymore. I am actually moving on. (YAHOO!!! or as the japs would put it, YAFU!!) And we didn't go to the Botanical Garden.
I am looking forward to another vacation with you guys! Ayon sa cliche...you made me live again. wahahahahahahah!
WHY NOT?
I actually have qualms about blogging. Firstly, I enjoy reading other people's blogs and I often think that I am not articulate enough and/or that my vocabulary isn't wide/deep enough. I always wonder about the technicalities (does it sound witty? is it interesting? will this make me sound smart? are there grammatical errors?) that I get discouraged even before starting to write. I also have problems writing what I really want to write. If there are people I write/bitch about who read my blog or know who I'm bitching about then I'd rather not write about it, leaving me with nothing to write about.
Another reason for not updating my blogs is that I now have little time to actually write. That person in the house had a major fight and I cannot forgive it for a long time. It actually spends its whole life in front of the computer so I cannot use the pc.
Anyway, I may be in a writing mood since I've been coming to Diane's everyday so I can use the pc.
BAGUIO
Diane's and Erik's latest entries were regarding our Baguio trip. Mine has a different slant...
I was actually reluctant to go to Baguio. I was there two years ago with a few friends and B. That Baguio trip was sooooo much fun, and the fact that he was there makes it even more memorable. We got so close during that trip, we almost slept beside each other the entire trip. (TAKE NOTE: sleep beside hindi sleep with! mabait ako..although if the occasion had risen I would want to be a bad girl..hehe *wink wink*) It was perfect. The fact that almost the whole class fought because of the schedules and all the other shit/drama they could come up with, didn't dampen my happiness. I was so blissfully happy every second of that Baguio trip, that was why I was scared to go back because I knew I would be reminded of B and everything we did. See here, B turned out to be an unhappy experience after all, especially when I've already told him how I felt. After he left and practically ignored me (he's doing that til now even in YM! the asshole..hahaha) I became so emotionally spent. I was thinking Baguio would provide lots of stimulants (and it did) to remind me of him.
Whatever, I thought, it's still going to be fun since I will be going with different friends, except for Lachi who was also with me during the memorable Baguio event from two years go. It was the day of my interview with the Programming Department of GMA, where I might be hired. After 3 interviews, almost crying in the GMA lobby, and sprinting to the bus station a la Amazing Race ("OMIGOD STOP THE BUS!!), I was finally on my way to what I thought was going to be such a painful reminder-slash-vacation. When we were still in Tarlac I already had visions of him and me in front of the ambulance we rode going to Baguio two years ago. GRRR! Okay, I just decided to sleep. I can't. GRRR ulit! I told Diane that the trip was taking so long but I didn't realize that fact before because it was actually to my advantage since I was sitting beside B during that loooooooooooong trip. In short, all the way up to Baguio I was thinking of the trip before. I was fighting to keep the tears back by pretending to be asleep. When that failed, I decided to be my usual cheerful self. "Pucha naman Inna ang drama mo! Mag tigil tigil ka nga!" I had an agreement with myseld that I'd be okay as long as I didn't go to the Botanical Garden.
Heto na!!! Baguio na!!! My loneliness was overcome by excitement when we reached Baguio. I was also excited na kumpleto na kami. We did the usual tourist route, not forgetting boating in Burnham (and that unforgettable "Iceberg right ahead!" event from four years ago naman). I was correct in assuming that I would be reminded of him, but surprisingly it wasn't that sad, or painful. I jokingly told my companions the story behind the place, tapos nun wala na. Ganun lang. It turned out to be such a fun vacation (Ayee was even there and we all met up). I was drunk all three nights I was there. Goddamn, my "twin peaks" had even been exploited!
The trip was actually cathartic. I was glad that his memories don't affect me as much anymore. I am actually moving on. (YAHOO!!! or as the japs would put it, YAFU!!) And we didn't go to the Botanical Garden.
I am looking forward to another vacation with you guys! Ayon sa cliche...you made me live again. wahahahahahahah!
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