Forgiveness 2/50

Who's the most understanding person you know?

My mom and not my mom lol

She's very accepting of whatever I do. It's been a while but it's still hard to try and make her understand the situations and things I'm going through when it's rough. But, still, she tries. I get angry at her, and she KNOWS right away when I'm mad at her. It hurts her, but she just waits for me to cool my head. She just accepts everuthing I do. I love her the most in the world. ❤️

Self-reflection 2/52

What's become more important to me recently than ever before?

First and foremost- life. Waking up alive, safe, (relatively) healthy every morning. 

My parents.

Connecting with friends, and some family members, I guess. Physical interaction, too. I miss it so much.

Peace of mind, which still remains out of grasp.

Forgiveness 1/50

Write out one mistake you've made recently and the lesson it taught you.

Very recent. Big mistake. I applied for another job, and told my current employer too late that I would need to quit one of the classes I'm teaching. I assumed they'd let me stay for the other class, or give me some other class. I assumed it was okay to thell them the truth that I was going to teach at another school. I assumed it would go well, like when I told my manager at my other part-time job. Lesson: never assume, and be more careful of cultural differences LOL and be more mindful of other people's timelines. Also, I was trying to be more honest now, but I guess lying would still work? LOL

Healing 3/50

What do you understand now about the healing process that you didn't before?

Uh...knowing what's wrong first so you can understand what you're trying to fix. Understanding what's wrong with you so you also understand how to deal with it.

Also, healing isn't instant. It takes time. There are times you think you're already okay, but some little thing triggers you, and it could all come crashing back. 

Self-love 1/50

Write one thing you appreciate about the body part you're most insecure about.

I do not like a lot of things from my body, I have always struggled with body issues because I was always fatter than most people my age (although it seems ageing has caught up with them now 🤣) so it's hard to pick one. Hmmm. Okay, maybe my legs.

I appreciate that my legs are still fully functioning. I get to go to different places because of it. I like walking, too, and it works well for that LOL They're not aesthetically pleasing, but they work fine. Thanks, logs. I mean, legs.

Self-reflection 1/52

Been feeling the urge to write again, so here I am.

Discovered the We're Not Really Strangers cards and got so interested, so I'll be using those as prompts for entries. Today, I drew from the Self-Reflection deck, and got the question:

When was the last time I enjoyed my own company? What was I doing?

Ever since I experienced travelling on my own, I found that I enjoyed it, but only for a few days 😂 I need human interaction after maybe 3 days. There hasn't been a problem in keeping myself company because, eventhough I'm mainly an extrovert, I also truly enjoy alone time. Doing nothing, or just reading webtoons, and I'm good. Walking while listening to music, getting lost in my (sometimes dangerous) thoughts are one of the things I like doing. Hmm to think of a specific example of a time I enjoyed my own company...probably a few weeks ago when I wasn't busy or stressed out, and I was wasting time reading webtoons.

BUT I also definitely to interact with other people. Virtual is okay, but I truly believe that I am best experienced in person 😅 There's a different energy that I get when I interact with people that I really like.